Posts Tagged "mental health"

to my authentic peepz

Posted by on 5 Oct 15 in Personal | 1 comment

The most beautiful people in the world are authentic. People can call them names – like hipster or hippie or geek – but does that all really define them? What do those words even mean? People are so much more complicated than how they are defined. They are more than the categories they are boxed into. They are complex, with so many different interests, so many different perspectives, so many feelings. We have a way of trying to hard to not be vulnerable. We strive not to show weakness, scared that we are going to be judged for what we do. But what for? What are all these fears...

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I am lost. Again.

Posted by on 1 Sep 15 in Personal | 0 comments

I am lost. Again. I have dreams and hopes, but as I grow older, these collapse under a tidal wave of “reality”. Things have become unstuck. Nothing is quite so right or wrong anymore. Everything is about nuances, of buts…, and what ifs. There no Hegellian thesis or antithesis – there are no opposites of action. There is only grey: the inbetweens, the patch-up jobs of mistakes that cannot be undone. This is no synthesis. It’s just survival. We cannot raze society and build another on its ashes. There are too many lives at stake, too many issues to be dealt with...

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A stream of consciousness on pain

Posted by on 24 Aug 15 in Personal | 0 comments

A stream of consciousness on pain

Trigger warning: mental health, suicide intention I can’t breathe. It’s not an “emo” statement, it’s a statement of fact. I can’t breathe because I feel so overwhelmed with emotion that I can’t even tell you what emotions they are. I feel like there is a fire inside of me that’s erupting, as though I should completely tear my flesh apart to let it free. I feel like I want to scream at everyone and everything. I feel like a fool who’s asking for too much attention from people. I feel like I am lost. I feel like there is no way to make this...

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To recover, but how?

Posted by on 29 May 14 in Personal | 3 comments

To recover, but how?

One of the largest difficulties I’ve had since being diagnosed with a “mood disorder” 4 years ago has been learning how to rebuild my own identity. Depression had destroyed the person I was. Suddenly I was aware how every interest that I had had become a chore, every sense of self-worth had burnt away to fine ash, my identity as a “nice” girl within my family became a distant memory… I had no comprehension or capability to see myself as a whole person. Since then, I have spent years trying to rebuild some form of selfhood. It has not been easy; this world...

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Inclusive Movement? A call to action

Posted by on 4 Jul 13 in Social Justice | 2 comments

Inclusive Movement? A call to action

When Suzanne Dhaliwal wrote this response to my concerns over mental health stigma in the workplace, I began to wonder how many times I had met other women of colour within the activist networks who had recited the same story: the same feeling of not belonging, not quite knowing where they could be placed within this so-called “alternative” society, and why they felt ostracised while so many others found it so easy to participate. This is also my story, where I have been called out for using the racism card, ignored for challenging ethnocentric analyses, and been criticised for...

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